It’s hard to believe that in just under a week we’ll be on our way to welcoming in the New Year of 2012. I honestly look back on 2011 and it feels like one giant blur — not sure if that is a good or bad thing just yet. Regardless, it has been quite a whirlwind of a year for me, and I openly admit that I’m looking forward to closing this chapter of my life. In just the last week and a half, I’ve experienced great upheaval and changes in my life that have really tested my mental stability and sobriety. Needless to say, despite an overwhelming feeling of defeat and a bit of heartache, I’m happy to say I came out of it with a clear mind and without a drink. And in the end, I know my decisions are for the best and that things can only get better from here on out.
Over the course of the next few days, I’m going to completely purge my apartment, closet, and workspace once and for all. It’s been a task that has been put off for way too long, and I refuse to go into the New Year with a cluttered home and mind. My apartment is basically an overwhelming space for me, and I can’t seem to get settled properly while I’m being suffocated by my things. It’s not very relaxing at all. But, I’m confident that once I get everything in order, I will be able to move my year into a more positive and productive light. (Read: ‘Minimalism: How to Declutter Your Home & Your Soul’)
Some things I’d like to work on in 2012…
Live a life fueled by positivity. It’s really easy to say you’re a positive person, but at the end of the day when we rest our heads down on the pillow, is it the truth? I could probably go on for an entire post about this, but I won’t. For now, I’m just going to say I want to live every day in the most positive way possible. I won’t let myself be surrounded by negative thinking people or have my brain clouded with negative thoughts. It’s exhausting and mentally taxing. I’ve come to realize that 99% of the time, someone’s negative shit is just not about me, and there is no reason for me to take it on myself. No complaints, no gossip, no focusing on the bad.
Continue on living a sober life. It’s been a process, that’s for sure. But, I plan on continuing with it because it has done nothing but wonderful things for my life.
To stop obsessively checking Facebook and Twitter. The few days that I had no phone were quite refreshing. I love Twitter, but to be honest I’m so completely over Facebook. If I didn’t need it for work, I’d probably delete it. Lately, I even find myself just scrolling to the top of the Twitter app and not going through old tweets like I used to. It’s quite freeing.
Purchase an organizer. Throughout 2011, I bounced between a Filofax and a Moleskine notebook. Needless to say, it just left me even more un-organized than before. I need to pick up a legit planner and call it a day. I really adore the Erin Condren planners, but it’s not really in my budget at the moment. We’ll see.
Stop bullshitting and get into shape. 30 years old is just around the corner from me and I need to quit being so damn unhealthy. Since giving up alcohol, I’ve lost a lot of the difficult weight I’d been wanting to get rid of, now it’s time to get fit. It shouldn’t be that difficult considering I have a huge stack of Jillian Michaels DVDs staring at me in the face every time I plop my lazy ass onto the couch. Hahaha.
Semi-related to the paragraph above, I would like to Learn to cook. I mean don’t get the wrong idea, I’m not some fire hazard and hot mess in the kitchen, but a girl can only eat so many uncreative meals before going insane. I really want to become a better vegetarian and incorporate this into the blog as well.
Stop shopping so fucking much. (Yes, I shop so much that it warranted a curse word in there) While I’ve been going through my closets and drawers, I’ve noticed how much shit I really have. I don’t even have room for it. Then I’ll go to pick up my dry cleaning orders and have even more items piling up on my bed. And the amount of shoes that I have is offensive. I randomly find shoes that I haven’t worn in months because I forget about them. The other day, I just realized I owned a pair of those Jessica Simpson “Dany” heels. It’s really out of control. I’ve considered starting a “Shop My Closet” site, but that is just more work than I care to get into right now, I rather just donate it all to a local charity. They need the clothing and shoes more than we do anyway.
Kick my blogging ass into gear. I love writing, I love blogging, so why the fuck have I slacked so much on it this year? I can’t pinpoint one thing or another for the reasoning behind this. Perhaps I was too busy living life off the internet, or I just didn’t feel inspired by surrounding parties. I’m not sure. But, I do know that this blog is very important to me, and I want to make it so much better than it has ever been. I have so many ideas and plans that are just waiting to be executed.
Starting the day with writing. My co-worker mentioned the author Julia Cameron to me, and a few of her tips for writing. One of them was to start the day by writing 5 pages of absolute bullshit just to get the creative juices flowing. This is definitely something I want to try. I’m also going to pick up a few of her books from the library.
Giving up alcohol was one of the most difficult things I’ve had to do, and I’ve managed to beat it. So there shouldn’t be any reason that I can’t accomplish these things, right?
A few links I feel compliment this post…
If you’ve got any links that pertain to these topics and you think I should check out, please share!